I love you Grandpa.

Gonna try my best to type everything out on what happened the past 3 days. Here goes..

Woke up by Aunty Ann at 6am, crying. Grandpa is dying. Get up. Going to the hospital now. Everyone else jumped out of bed. Just grabbed shirts and jeans. Sort of broke my nail and it sorta bleed cause of it. All of us jumped in my mum's car. Me, Amelyn, Aaron, Aunty Jane, Aunty Ann and my mum. My dad and kelly were coming in a separate car. Aunty Jane was calling my uncle to try to get Joel and Josiah to the hospital too. But can't. She already called my other Uncle. Was trying to get Kimmy the whole way. In the end, called her friend's phone. Found out she left her phone in a friend's car and was staying over at Amelia's house. She couldn't come. SO we had to leave it as that.
Got to the hospital. Ran all the way from the car park to the room. And it's freaking far. And I haven't been exercising for a very long time. Aunty Jane reached the room first. Then me. The first thing I saw was the curtains. Then the nurses. Tears came down. Saw my grandfather. Wrapped up. With a tag at his feet. Aaron just stoned there. Couldn't cry. Amelyn just fell down and cried. Heard someone screamed and shouted. It was Aunty Ann. All of us just stayed where we were. Crying. I couldn't stand being there. Went out to sit. Couldn't stop. My mum came in the end. And saw. Then my uncle and aunt with my grandmother. He was asking me. What happened. I just couldn't say anything. But he knew. Called Kimmy. Cried on the phone.
No freaking point in running. Didn't make it on time.

My grandfather died at 6:18am. We got there at 6:30.

A lot of people came for the funeral. We chose what my grandfather would wear. I did his tie. ^^ Hehe. Well. Ya.

Wednesday morning. Sang and prayed. The pastor asked us to walk around the coffin to pay respects. Friends and distant relatives first then only us. Didn't want to cry. I saw my cousins crying that made me cry. Seeing them broke my heart. When the coffin was in the van. We walked behind. Crying. Aunty Ann was crying out Papa. So so heartbreaking.

At the cremation place. Sang Amazing Grace. Tried not to cry. And once again we had to walk around the coffin and lay flowers on it. It was too much. Aunty Ann couldn't bring herself to look again. My mum kissed and said she loves him. I stood there. Looking in. My grandfather looked so peaceful.

The worse part of all. The coffin was brought to the fire. My cousins were crying out Grandpa. Come back. I love you.
I went in. And saw it burning. Cried out loud. My brother in the end. He cried. That made me cry even more. All of us were crying out for Grandpa. I guess the sight was too much. Everyone else teared. Never in my life I cried this hard. Never.

There's so many things I want to say about him. One of my memories of him. Which I treasure the most. Is when he cried with me. The first time I saw my grandfather cried. My mum scolded me for something I did. This was one of the worst I had. Though I don't remember what it was about. I came into the kitchen and cry. My grandfather was there. He heard everything. He held me and I could feel him crying too. Cried even more. Comforting me.
One of my happiest was when he was proud of me. It was my results for SPM. It wasn't that great. But because I don't study at all and I still could produce such results, my grandfather boasted to his colleagues, his staff. My mum told me, he said, so what if other kids had 10 A's and they study hard. Even, someone someone's son is so smart, study so hard. He turned out to only have 6 A's and was expecting for 10. And Amanda don't study, she turned out better.
I was so happy that I made my grandfather so proud of me.

Grandpa, I hope you're happy now. Just wait for us in heaven. Enjoy your wine up above. I bet it's soooo much better than here. >.<

Thanks to those who sent their condolences and prayers. There's too many to be listed out. Thank you very much especially to the ones who came. And thank you to ones who tried. *hehe* I really appreciate for all those words of kindness, prayers and thoughts. Every one of you just made my day a little brighter.

James Lim Yoke Kong passed on at the age of 73, on the 17th of December 2007, at 6:18am.

His life earnest, his actions kind,
A willing hand, an active mind,
Anxious to please, ready to defend,
A loving father and faithful friend.

Fattiness

Oh great. I totally forgotten what I wanted to blog. Anyway....

Working two jobs is killing me! Sort of actually. Oh yea. It's killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not because of the tired part. Just this two weeks. I put on freaking 5kg!!!!!! You know how much is that! *sob* It's all that food. Reminder to dear-oh-so-dumb-amanda: To not work in a restaurant or any food related jobs. It leads to....well..you get it. 5kg! *sniff* *sniff* Blardy other job in pilates not helping. Well. It doesn't really make you lose weight. But. aaaarrrrgghhhhhhhhh! Whatever! From now on. I shall not go into the kitchen and ask Amelyn to give me food. Yes! Shall not do that. But Becky (my boss. er. right/left hand of my boss or something like that. Aunty Jane said so) she keeps spending me those oh-so-sinful-deliCious-to-die-for brownies! And the banana and peach crumble. Stop eating!!!!!!! ok. Stop.

I've been craving for nasi lemak. It has been a reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaalllyyyyyyy long time I haven't met up with my beloved nasi lemak. Another thing to cry about. But I can't! I'm getting fat. WAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Shall not think about it.

Ok. I've been looking forward to the year end hols. Been looking forward to having lazy days. Just reading books. Dotaing. Pooling. Chilling. Drinking. And stuff. But. I think I had that the whole entire year. So now. I'm working. So freaking dumb. Aish. Just bored with going out and stuff these days. The whole entire year I have done nothing else but that. Ok. I did study. And do my assignments. I did ok. You just don't know that's all. *wink*

I have to force myself to apply. Gonna kill myself for that. Or would anyone like to force me to do it? >.< stress.

Sleep sleep time. Wanna read Harry Potter! >.<

Ladida~

Touch

One miss it sometimes.

I have my family and friends. That's all I need now. Oh. And my 2 jobs. My car. Cayenne and Chelsey. And nasi lemak. And "boyfriend". And Starbucks. Ya. Nothing else I need. Right now. >.<

Ultra.

I'll always have you

It's been months!!! And why do you still fucking care?!?!?!?! Why do you give a shit. Forget about it already! Goodness sake! BAh! So damn fucking irritating.

Smile Bitch. Just Smile.

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Save me

Just for today. I won't bore you with what I did today. But oh! I had the caramelised roast pork rice! Omg! Super awesome! I'm gonna get fat working at a place like this! *sob*

Kimmy is on the way to Langkawi now. Dropped her off. Took me damn long to get to the freaking bus stop which was in Hentian Duta. I freaking don't know where it is. So ya. Paid like freaking 2 or 3 tolls? Hehe. (Raymond's) "Yau hai toll ah?! Neeeyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" Lolx.

Hmm. I really have no idea what to blog. I feel like I have nothing. Nothing! I don't feel anything now. No feelings. Hehe. Oh well.

Ric. Hope you had a fun birthday *without me*. ^^ I'll get you that damn money clip la ok. Chill. Hehe. Bleach-ie time~

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Oh. Before I forget.

Happy Birthday "Boyfriend"!!!!!!!
*ric*

tIRedNess~

At work today. Happy Happy~ Don't know why. ^^
Super busy. I one person alone had to take orders. Serve. Clean. Walao eh~ But then. At least I was doing something. The first customers that came. I wished them and gave them the menu. They were like. Wow. First time someone served us with a smile. Then he bend down and said "No one smiles around here". Lolx. I smile! ^^
Amelyn fried korean noodles. It was ok la. Not bad. Lolx. But when Ah Munn, the chef, she put in the roast pork. Omg. Heaven~

Came home. Dead tired. Just straight lie on my bed and slept. Woke up at 5 something. Oh. I finished work at 4 something. So. Didn't sleep much. Took a quick shower and off again to work. Another job. The one I have been working for 1 and a half year. Wow. Didn't know I've been there for long de. Lolx. Arrived at work. Made myself a cup of coffee. Had cheesecake. And started doing the blardy paperwork. *sob*

Got home. Went to tha hospital to see grandpa. Then went uptown to eat what we call "malay rice" Lolx. So. Ya. And I'm back home now. Off to ss2. Whole day didn't have my dessert~ Hehe. See ya!

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Workie work

You all damn babi wei. I working but still at least got time to blog. But you all...Blah!
Hehe.

Damn sien today. At work. Sweep and clean all. No customers at all. Only a couple. And they just wanted lipton tea! mch. Hehe. But then. Had free makan! First, Eddie. He works and stays there. Yea. He bought oreo cheese cake! He bought two. One for me and one for Amelyn. We shared one and couldn't even finish it. But damn yummy! >.<
Then, the chef. Asked Amelyn to fry 5 eggs. Totally fail. So we took the ugliest one out. And made egg sandwich. Super yummy. Hehe. I fried another 2 more eggs to replace the other ugly ones. Then Becky, the supervisor, said to Amelyn. "You work outside la. Let your sister work in the kitchen". Lolx. I can fry eggs! Haha.

After work. Met up with Ric and Mei at Bangsar Nirvana. Yee Hui came after that. Didn't want to eat de cause had the egg sandwich. Then went ta work. Didn't do much. Cause was reading story book. Haha. *guilty* So much work to do!!! *sob* Thats for laziness.

OK. Off ta bed now. Have to wake up. *sob* Early early~!

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Feeling Shitty

Actually. Need ta go shit now. Whaha. Stupis nails. Breaking. I think I'll take it off and just do plain manicure. Whahaha. $$$ tada. Nvm. Ask from daddy. If don't give. Then go eat at club. Whahaha. K. Need ta shit. Tomowo gonna start work de! *sobs*

Here we go~

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>.<

Kimmy in ze stoking. Which I think we still have it till today.

Me and Amelyn. I have no idea what the heck are we doing.

Kimmy, Amelyn and Me~ Gangsta Lovin~

My mum scanned those pics. Aish. Hehe.

Tired~ Wanna sleep. Suppose to sleep now. Did super lot of things today. too lazy to actually type everything out. Just want to say this.

RIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You don't make noise de. I call you almost everyday. To go out. So. Now. I fed up de. I just wait for your call now. So you jangan bising if I didn't call you all! So.. Shut up!

Hehe. so damn tired out. Tomorrow my last day to be free. Hehe. Who wants to go out with me before I busy. Fashter call! Lolx. Oh no. Now that means. I can't maple de. Can't watch my bleach. Can't read one piece. Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Sad.

K. K. Seep sleep time!

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